Busybusybusy

Sorry about no posts for a while!  I've been so busy lately, even today.

First of all, I was able to feed with minimal problems.  It'll definitely help knowing what to expect next time.  I was really scared about it this.

Afterwards, I started searching for a job.  And searching.  And searching.  And searching.  I'm pretty sure there should be some sort of law about discrimination... but, there isn't.  It's kind of offensive though.  The applications have "State species."  So, I always say human.  People take one look at that mark and then pretty much blow me off the rest of the interview.  It's getting so frustrating.  I can't even put into words what I want to say about that.  I guess humans aren't good enough for most of these jobs.  (growl)

However, today, I think I got one or two jobs that may work out for me... I hope (crosses fingers).  If not, I'm at my wits end for what I can do...  We need the money.. we had some when we started, of course... so we can buy supplies and groceries, but this thing we need about the roof... I didn't imagine it'd come up so fast.  I just feel bad about not being able to support my family as I should...

Yeah, anyway.  Speaking of my family, Leo's still going on about Gracie.  More and more often every day.  He's being so clingy too... sometimes I have to take him with me to get the applications, but a lot of the time Ty and I switch off an on being with him.  When she's not working, I go out and then if she is, I stay here with him.  I really hope Gracie isn't him trying to tell us he's scared or misses us.  I'm so worried for him and Ty... But I think it'll be okay... maybe.

Ty told me about the repair man as well... I don't know wha tto think other than I wish I could be with her 24/7 now...  (sigh)

Anyway, I should go, I'm exhausted... and Leo's wanting to snuggle.  He just woke up again...  I'm thinking bad dreams, but he doesn't admit it...  My sweet little boy... I love him so much...  I'll try to post more often, but no promises.

Storm and Then Some

First of all, I'm starting to get nervous about a few things.  I'm going to have to start looking for a job soon...  I always knew it, but the fact Ty is working now when the man didn't want me to help makes me a bit nervous about finding a job for myself.  I'm going to start looking tomorrow.  I may ahve to bring Leo with me though... I don't know if Ty is going out tomorrow or not.

Second of all, why did he want Ty...?  That makes me uncomfortable, but nothing seems to have been... uncalled for... if you understand what I mean.  I'm sure she'd tell me if anything like that happened.  He wa sjust acting weird.  Maybe I'm over protective.  Probably both.

Lastly, I think I'm going out tomorrow morning to... feed.  Please don't ask.  It's dangerous for me to be around my own family if it goes too far though.  It's getting near that line.  I was going to tell Ty today, but... the job issue came up.  I'll tell her tomorrow.  She'll understand, but I just hope she doesn't worry too much about it.  Though, I have a feeling there aren't many people like me here.  There are 'monsters', for lack of a better word, the word used on Earth.  But we haven't seen any of them yet... Granted, there are ghosts and werewolf-esque and shadow-people.  So maybe...

Anyway... I lost track of what I was going say.

Leo seems a bit scared about Gracie still... though, part of me is wondering if he's just scared of the storm again and that's where he's putting the fear.  The storm clouds are still coming and going, but we haven't gotten anymore rainbow-storms or real water yet.

I'm looking at Ty now though and she's seeming lonely.  I'm going to go snuggle with her now and maybe get her opinion on things... Leo's luckily already in bed, we've finally gotten a schedule for him... with no ice cream involved.

Sickness

... has made its rounds.  I hope this means we'll be done with it for a while though.  (sigh)

It's really annoying to be sick... just having to sit still.  I think it's cause I miss my wife and son, but luckily, they're so sweet to help me.  Ty's acting about how I was... but, I understand, so I'm holding nothing against her.  I'm feeling a bit better right now.  I snuck away to do this though.  Ty's helping Leo get ready for bed and figured I'm safe for a few minutes.  I hear him splashing around in the tub and trying to convince her to sing to him and telling him a bedtime story.  I keep hearing something about a 'Gracia' as well.  I'll try to ask them about that later.  A new friend maybe?

Not too much to report otherwise, I've slept a lot... kind of like after I changed.  Speaking of... I'm thirsty... I was yesterday too... I doubt this sickness has helped matters much.  I think I can go a few more days though...  I always try to avoid bringing it up around Ty.  We have enough problems without having to deal with this...

We had brought up plans to deal with this before we left, but it's not exactly simple though...  I should go, I think I'm about to get in trouble though.  Whoops?

Happiness

Being here is hard work.  Though, it's gratifying at the same time.  Every day is something different that we have to deal with and work through.  But, we get it together.  Leo relies on us, but with Ty, I feel like we can tackle anything.  Well, almost anything.  We're getting closer as a family than we were before, which I never imagined was possible.

Today, we could tell Leo was a bit under the weather as well, but he wasn't quite as bad as Ty was.  It was just a small cold.  But, a child + a cold is never an easy thing.  He woke us up really early this morning saying he was cold.  We got him snuggled into the covers with us and were about to go back to sleep before he started telling us he was feeling really yucky.  His word - yucky.

Once we realized he did have a bit of a fever, we got up and got him snuggling on the couch wrapped a blanket and his favorite toys and some medicine in him... eventually.  That was a battle in and of itself... he kept refusing it... until we convinced him that he couldn't see his new friend until he felt better... then he immediately took it.  It's so sweet to know he's close to someone else already.

All day, he was so clingy with both of us.  For a while, he even asked us to take him downstairs to see Damien...  It seemed like he didn't want any of us out of his sight for too long.  He kept asking for his Grandmas...  It made us all homesick, and him even more clingy... but we showed him some pictures and told some stories until he finally calmed down again.

His fever didn't go away until a few hours ago, but he was already starting to act more normal by the time it did.  He even drew us some more pictures!  Our fridge is already full of his little drawings... I hope he never stops... each one means something important to him and to us.  I don't know how he does it, but even something as small as some (I'll admit, crudely drawn sometimes) lines will make us so happy.

He's currently curled up with Ty on the couch; they're both asleep and I've never seen a scene that has warmed my heart more.  Being away from our real home is so hard.  We miss our family and the lives we had.  But this is for the best and we are safe.  That wasn't something we could say there for a while now.  For the time being, this is our home and we are making the best of it.  I wouldn't miss this time for the world.  Tomorrow will bring a new adventure, a new mountain to overcome, but tonight, I'm going to hold my wife and son and feel like I'm on top of the world.  These are the memories we will leave this place with; we'll soon forget all the bad if we have enough of the good to fill our hearts.

Good night everybody, and sweet dreams.

The Blues

Today's rain turned out to be some sort of blue instead of the pink from yesterday, but luckily we were on our way home, not on our way out.  This is rather depressing - the rain.  It's some sort of 'rainbow' storm instead of just rain.  It should be cool... but it's upset Leo and everything is getting really cold.  I think the seasons are starting to change...

At the store, Leo messed with our heads a bit again, trying to get so many new toys... but we talked him out of them... mostly...  We did end up spoiling him a bit.  But sometimes kids need that sort of thing... or so I've heard... I really don't know some days.  But, he was so happy when we got home... even if we were all slightly blue, he immediately started to try to unpack them.  Now there's scattered about the house again...  I'll try to clean that up tomorrow.  I just don't feel right when Ty feels like she has to clean everything.

I don't know, I hope it's just the rain that's got me down, but it is rather chilly in here... I think I'm going to go snuggle with Ty...

Wait... when'd it get so late...?  I guess I should go sleep with her..  I think I did that earlier... not too sure now... Sleepy...  Bye-bye.

How...

I finally convinced Leo to sit down for a while as I finished cleaning the rest of the house.  How can one child be so messy?  HOW?

But... he does make it up for those cute moments.  He drew a picture of 'mommy' today.  I had to help him write on it, but his trying was so cute.  Ty didn't see all the attempts... we had about 15 in total before he let me help him.  She went to give him a bath... I hope the marker comes off easily...

I have a feeling Ty isn't liking the fact that I'm taking care of her so much... but she's still sick.  Her fever just went away yesterday, and I can tell she's still tired.  If she's mad at me, she's gonna have to be...

Don't tell her yet... but while she was sleeping this afternoon, Leo took the nap with her and I went out to get her something special...

It's kind of like a get better present, but I'm going to give it to her tomorrow when she's cooled down a bit.  I feel like I've upset her about something...

Along with 'how'... I'm just trying to figure out how people here can be so rude yet so very nice at the same time.  I'm having mixed feelings about our neighbors... they're judging us, you can tell from their eyes... but I am hoping that if we get to actually know them, they're warm up to us.  I saw them peeking at me through the windows today.  I'm kind of glad they were both in the house today.  I hated it on Earth when people looked at them like that, now here too?  Though, it might be just me... there aren't really any humans here, but honestly, I'm not fully human either, but I look it.

I heard from someone it's going to rain tomorrow... we've yet to see rain... this new planet will bring new experiences... hopefully it's normal 'rain'.  We really aren't fans of rain... but, we'll make do.  Maybe it'll be something closer to snow that we can play in.  We can always hope anyway.

Heh...

So, yeah.  Turns out, that ice cream was a terrible idea.  Also leaving my wife alone was a terrible idea.  I love her, but sometimes she doesn't realize that she's hurting herself more when she does something.  She's still sick.  She knows it.  I know it (now).  It upsets me when she doesn't share the fact she's not feeling well.  I know I can be overbearing sometimes, but I try not to be... but I do want to help her get better...

Anyway... I forgot what else I was going to say.  Oh, right.  Leo.  Never getting ice cream again.  At least, at any time after, lets say 4.  4:30.  I think he may still be wired from it... or maybe that was just because he slept in really late because he was up half the night.  I'm still soaking wet from what was just his water-play time.  It wasn't exactly a bath...

Ty may have said she was sneaking around, but I knew what she was doing...  It's hard sometimes... living like this... I guess it's hard for all of us... but sometimes I feel like we have to trust each other on the big things, but those small instances; they're harder to talk about.  I'd like to hope that if she actually told me she was feeling better, I wouldn't try to hold her back...  (sigh)

Well, that's not exactly a way I was hoping to go with this blog, but it'll have to do...  It's the middle of the night and I think I might hear her waking up...  I couldn't sleep too well, so I came out to do this... but I think I should get back, I think she feels lonely sometimes when she wakes up to an empty bed.  I know I do...

~ Until we meet again. ~